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not.. quite... so... great... right...now
well, vit came home. i said how i got ill at the thought of him back.
he... he says he won't support me (as in finance, food, shelter) as long as i'm with josh. and i think, "damn, how do i tell him now?"
i wanted to wait a while, because i thought i wouldn't be ready to hear all of his "i told you so" crap." but since i'm ok, i could tell him. except then he won't understand that josh is now my friend. with him it's all problems.

my wrists hurt.

i'd do anything for a lover / i'd do anything for a friend / i only want to see you happy / baby, can we pretend?