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well, at some point last night my left ear decided to be a team player and get better. that feels good. however, at the same time, my right ear decided to try to raise a mutiny. i woke up at about 4 am because of excrutiating, pounding pain. i didn't fall back asleep until 7. i hated it, i started crying, not because of the pain, but because i was tired and wanted sleep.
now, all the symptoms that lefty had have been transferred to the other side.

i woke up at noon, and was pissed off. i have way too much to do today, and i don't know if i can. i may have to cancel plans for this evening.

as for my post yesterday: no weekend is complete unless i spend several hours wallowing in sadness and doubting my relationship with josh. if i were smart, i'd just stop paying attention to my feelings.

i am once again struck by how different i am from everyone else in my generation. they're doing a serial on cp24 about plastic surgery, called "look younger. why not?" that title pissed me off.
i don't know why, but it seems at time that i am the only person who is aware of the fact that i will eventually be 70-years-old. and, more importantly, that 70-year-olds are wrinkly, saggy, slow, and hard of hearing. i am comfortable with these facts. but it seems like everyone is trying to stay young forever. honestly, why?