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part one: updates
i just got back from seeing bubba ho-tep at the kingsway. it was cheesy and unapologetically unrealistic and i couldn't think of a better way to spend $4 - it was very sweet. it is also the exact maximum amount of suspense that i can handle. all in all, a fine evening.

had my first day of summer school calculus today, and it was okay. the prof is kinda good looking, so having to look at him for six hours a week won't be too bad.

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part two: recollections
last week, i was walking down montgomery rd. in the middle of the day, on my way to yet another job agency. all i was really thinking about was the smell of the grass and the intense heat on my back. i didn't really want to work. i wanted to go to a park and sit in the grass and walk in the river, and contemplate the bugs and tadpoles. i wanted to look at things that were real, really real, not this cold, hard, sterile bullshit of civilized life.
and i though, all humans (or at least all vegas) have two fundamental instincts: to love, and to wander. and the two are in conflict, because loving someone means having to put down roots, to stay in one place where your loved one is. and you'll forever have that other instinct inside of you, sometimes dormant, sometimes painfully awake, and you'll want to go and walk forever. but if you do, you'll be lonely.
today, coming back from the theatre, i thought about how i used to think those people who just up and sail around the world with their spouse are strange. it strikes me that they're not, not at all.
and i thought about how i still sometimes wish i could grow up and be a nomad.