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friday afternoon i got home, ate a sandwich, and headed right out again. i met greg, and we headed off downtown where we met sean. the three of us had dinner at swiss chalet, and then played some pool at a place called VIP, or something like that. it was actually kind of neat, because i don't play pool and i assumed i would be terrible at it, but i was actually kind of okay. in fact, greg and sean both said i did better than them.
we then walked back to SMC to catch the MagicBus for the SMC Toga Party. we arrived, only to find out that we were in the extreme minority of people who did not wear togas. at the time that we were waiting for the bus, only some organizers and a bunch of foreign exchange boys were there, and the exchange boys made fun to no end of us for our non-toga ways.
the MagicBus ride was, of course, great. we screamed out the windows and sang along to the music and had a gay old time.
when we arrived at the church - the venue for the party - sean and greg felt so bad about not having togas, that we ran down the street to find a convenience store, open at 11pm, and selling table cloths. sean and greg each got one - checker-board-patterned plastic table clothes, held in place with safety pins. i think this adventure was the highlight of the evening.
the party itself was not that great. when will i learn not to go to those things? but i'm glad to at least be able to say that i've been to a toga party.

yesterday i had a massive break down. i felt rather sick last night (and am still not feeling to great) and i sat on the couch watching cast away. as the evening wore on, i had my break down. i suddenly got very depressed about josh being away, and started thinking all sorts of terrible thoughts. it's like some sort of barrier broke, and where i had been okay for the past week-and-a-half, i just couldn't be okay any longer.
i think i'm feeling better now, but i can't stand to have to wait another 2 days to talk to him.

also, happy fall equinox (i'm only 4 days late...).