for quite a while now, i've wanted to blog. but every time i sit down at the computer, my inspiration leaves me. so i'm spoting parts of a letter i sent mitul, so to catch people up on my life:
Speaking of how time flies, I saw Mehaik today, and I was asking her about her family. Her youngest brother is 13 now, and it's so strange to me because I've known him since he was only a baby. Her other brother picked up the phone when I called, and his voice had changed! I can't tell you how strange it is that these kids are growing up. It seems so hard to believe...
I dropped Josh off at the airport last Sunday. I mostly held my composure at the airport, but when I got home I fell apart. It hit me: "He's not here... he's not here." I was mostly okay after that. It's actually kind of strange, since I miss him, but it's not painful (I think that's because I've accepted it and there's nothing I can do). But I notice his absence in everything I do. I made plans to see Sean, and I notice I can't ask Josh to come. I want to see a movie, and I can't see it with Josh. I don't have much homework one night, but I can't visit him, etc., etc., etc.
Jeff is helping me buy tickets to go visit Josh the weekend of October 15 (the weekend after Thanksgiving).
My father has, of course, been very supportive (insert sarcasm here). He says things like "If I were a teenager, I'd say 'Sure I have a girlfriend, but I want 10 more,' and I'd screw around and cheat." My father seems completely oblivious to the fact that such statements don't make him very popular with me.
I had hoped that when Josh left my dad would find something else to complain about. Sadly, that is not the case.
School is going very well. Almost surprisingly so. The profs aren't all great, but it's made up for by the fact that the textbooks are all wonderful. I'm staying on top of my homework. I've even got a study group set up, like I said I would, and we'll meet next week for the first time.
Mostly I've been at home reading. I saw Sean once last week, and I saw Mehaik today. I'll likely see Sean and Greg tomorrow. I'm glad that I've been able to socialize that much.
On thursday, in my lab, I was able to get to know a whole bunch of physics people. I'm really happy about that: I feel like I finally know people, like I have a little community into which I fit.