i wish my love life were as active as the rumors in school say!
last year, apparently, i was with addy. now i's apparently with greg. it was amazing, in physics calss this girl allison asks if we're a couple, and by the end of the bay (just 2 hours later!) people are coming and saying they herd this rumor. it's amazing how fast they spread.

off to white pine tomorow!

friday cometh! so far i love my day 1's, when i have geometry, philosophy, calculus, and writer's craft. i have a mad load of homework from geometry and calculus, but that's ok. i enjoy the work. ^_^
the reason i have so much homework is because i'm heading off to white pine tommorrow (tommorrow?!?). as much as janice may think i'm an idiot for it, i think it's gonna be killer. spenfing five days whipping grade ten's around, along with my best friends.
i need to pop by goodwill, however, and get a costume. i'm hoping to find a red sequin dress, to go with a whore mast i got last night. ^_^ and i got a wig, wich finally allowed me to discover what i'd look like as a blond. :p

i know i'm going on and on about unimportatn things, like a prep. i think that happens to be at school: to overstimulated, too much noise, too many people, too much stress. so i start talking like a prep. it's annpying, but i can't help it. and i'm still all geek, baby!

hey, not a bad REAL first day!
my teachers are mostly cool, except for two. i have a sucky math of data management teacher, that is to say, he is not very enthusiastic, and the material is hard, so you need an enthusiastic teacher. the second is the physics teacher who is gonna be so horrible. he does NOTHING! he could hardly take attendance. he's slow, deaf, and a low talker. grr!
but my philosophy class is great! there's a lot of preps, who are gonna stay quiet and drop the course, and several really smart cool guys, who are gonna be fun. we had aobut 15 minutes in class, and the teacher started a lecture on what is philosophy, and it was great! ^_^ i'm so psyched about the class.

otherwise fine ^_^

grr! oh, i KNEW this would happen! i knew it!
what does davis do? he turns around and says "oh, i was just kidding! now clean up the mess you made." uh-huh. he was kidding. that's why ALL OF HIS BEST FRIENDS thought he was serious. i come back from vacation and ask how he is, and his best friends all tell me the same thig, he's not into her, he's stringing her along. and that's the polite version of what i was told.
and now i'm gonna end up being the malicious bitch. girls always want to forgive the guy they like, so when he says he was kidding she'll take him back, and tell all her friends what i did, and half the population of ECI will hate me. and that was just the first day of school!

vit came home yesterday, and that was not fun. he was stressed and edgy. but that's nothing. what pissed me off was my cousin jellena, whom i used to be fond of, did something to srew me over. she sent me an e-mail a week ago askeing that i write a one-page piece in english on the topic of "development needs of public servants in serbia." i thought it was for vit, so i didn't answer. vit was pissed about this ("oh my god! she even said please!!!!"). he didn't give a poop that i know nothing on the topic, and made me write something. i rambled nonsensical left-wing nonsence that anyone with a working knowledge of english could see through. i hope the bitch doesn't get the job. if she wanted me to translate something, that'd be ok. but what is this, will she want me to write her resume next? her job application for her? go to the interview for her? maybe i should just make this easy on myself and send her money.
by the way, in case it's not clear, she needed this thing written as part of a job application.

and vit made me go to salsa. i was hoping not to have to go any more. well, the whole thing will be over in a few months, the course that is. and if i get a job, hopefully he'll let me quit. of course, he did say "well, let's weigh the pros and cons, what you earn from a job as opposed to wonderful salsa lessons." i'm thinking "well, the latter i loathe and despise like all things evil and depraved..." sigh. can't he just not live with me?

grr... just came home, and already there's controvery at school.
i'm ok tight with davis. we hang out in the same group. holli i don't really know too well. i sometimes hang with her group, but not necessarily her.
davis was holli's summer crush. however, the sentiment was not returned. when i asked him why he was allowing her to think he likes her, he said "easy fuck." holli really thought he likes her.
so, since no one else would, i had to be bearer of bad news. i told her what he said.
i hate him. he doesn't care at all. he didn't have to see her cry.

well, as just about everyone is going to be talking about, school starts today. i am entering the 12th grade. sigh.
everyone is going in at 11:30, to get time table, purchase SAC cards and yearbooks. i'm going in ih half an hour (it's 8:15) on account of i am prefecting - i will be handing out the timetables.

i am so pissed about all the preps taking writer's craft. unlike in many schools, i think the non-preps at ECI have all the power. we hate the preps, and they know it. the only bad thing is that the teachers haven't cought on yet, and since preps are usually teacher's pets, it doesn't wrok out too well for us normal kids.
and that's exactly the problem. ms devoe is most likley teaching writer's craft, and, when they found this out, a mess load of preps signed up. usually there is one section of this course, but i herd this year there are three. and it makes me so mad: there are lots of people whom i respect as artists, like addy and kelly, who are taking it. but i can't stand to think of those talentless loosers taking it, wasting my time. besides, you can't be taught to write. you either have it or you don't.

i realize people can surprize you. i respected ayn rand as a philosopher, but not a writer, until i read one wonderful similie: when describing te rain on the window, she said the drops dripped "like question marks." and i was sold. but i seriousley doubt the average prep can do that.

i have a feeling i may become a bithc this year. maybe i'm just edgy today for some reason, but i keep seeing myself exploding at any prep who tries to "be nice" with me. and, like i told irene, if someone is rude to me, i can be rude right back. not that i like that, i don't think i'm mean and spiteful by nature. but i ahve to survive in a world that is full of people who don't want me to survive. to nuts to them.

i spent the days since wednesday hanging out with my friends, especially addy, sean,. greg, and, after she came back from her vacation, mitul. i also saw josh and janice, and feel quite satisfied. i only wish i had seen sara, but i will. and i don't know why i'm writing aobut this, no one cares.

my dad's coming home tonight. so onece i get home i'll just clean the house, maybe make some dinner. i've been wanting to review all my old physics and math notes, to remember formulas and such. i am so deading math, since i HATE drawing functions. hate it hate it hate it. and i have three math courses... well, i'll try.

white rabbits, everyone!*
i arrived home wednesday. i went out with greg, sean, and addy. i spent all of tuesday with them, helping set up for addy's party. actually, thursday we also had some prefecting responcibilities. after we got back from that, a bunch of us were at my place.
addy decided that he was being a hypocrite when he told people not to drink, since he'd never had a drink himself. he asked me to give him somethin, so i poured him a shot of whiskey, and he inhaled about a drop. i felt like such a bad host, since the polite thing to have done would have been to have a drink with him, but since i don't drink, that wasn't gonna happen.
we bought some party supplies. then greg, addy's brother, and i all went to a place to rent the sound and lights. it took forever, and was so annoying. but theat day made me so appreciate my guy friends, especially greg. it's so amazing to have people around who can GET THINGS DONE. need the sound? he goes to get it. need it set up? done. need to move all the furnature in the party room? he's there. it's amazing.
the party was friday. mehaik came, and slept over that night.

the party itself was... odd. all my little boys started acting like little pimps. sean and sam especially. i usually joke aruond with them by acting suggestive, just 'cause i like to see them squirm. but then they start responding, and i am just weirded out.
actually, i was appartently voted "horniest girl" by the guys. this annoyed me. i'd like to have a personality feature other than "horny." no one notices that i'm smart or witty, no no no, it's always aobut sex.
so, i think i'm gonna try and tone it down a bit.

vit was supposed to come home yesterday.... at least i thought he was. but it turns out he'll come home tuesday. it's great, though i am a bit confused about it.



my fourth grade teacher, mrs. dalke, always said that, if the first thing you say aloud on the first of the month is "white rabbits," you'll have good luck for the month.