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mira finally received my e-mail. you know how when someone is so excited to hear from you that you can tell if even from the bland, monotonous letters looking at you from a computer screen? like that.
vit is being a great and total jerk. he wants my drandparents to primise him i won't see vesna in order for me to stay with them. i could stay with mira, but then she'd have to pay for the whole ticket. and i don't want her to have to. i mean, his gorss earnings are 104G's a year, he can god damn afford a stupid plain ticket.
i though she'd be a bit more curious about josh. she just said she suspected that the reason i hadn't been writing to her was romance related, and what would i do with him over the summer if i came to yogoslavia.

oh... i just figured out what to use this blog for. to write down the stupid mindane stuff that happens, so my journal can be properly dedicated to what i'm thinking and feeling. neat.

speaking of the mundane... working on a project for photogrpahy. i want, every day, to shoot myself for taking that course. waste of my time. of well, pulls my average up.

i don't know why this blog doesn't show up online. maybe is set it to private or somehting... grr grr grr...

i'm feeling stagnant. haven't left the house all weekend. need to poke something.... :::pokes self::: no, it's not the same as poking other people. they complain.

i have to take the pictures for my photography summative, which is due next week. i hate may. and the end of june. no, that's not accureate: i hate school. waste of my time. i should be in university studying physics like a normal human being. or mediting in the jungle. or fucking. but not sitting here, with the stupid project.

gee... do i sound cynical?