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warning: vega complains about her miserable existence

wednesday i had my O&W midterm. it was surprisingly easy. it was as if the prof knew i was doing badly on the problem sets, and made a midterm just for me.
the happy feelings caused by this were wiped out today, when i miserably failed my QM midterm. of the 4 questions, i could only do 1.
the logical thing to do is drop the course, since i can't possibly pass it, and if i drop now it won't affect my GPA. but i can't imagine how i'm going to bring up that idea to my dad... he doesn't take well to these "progressive" ideas towards education.

i'm also feeling very down about josh.
when we first started dating, all my friends were on my back about how he never gave me flowers or did romantic stuff for me. but i stood my him and insisted that such gestures don't really matter.
but i suppose even i have my limits. and his general insensitiveness, his inability to make time for me, is taking it's toll on me.
i understand we can't afford to talk daily... but considering our average conversations last 15-25 minutes, i wish he could consistently take time every other day to talk to me. but he can't. and we haven't had a proper conversation since tuesday (not that we haven't talked: i called, only to have him tell me he was unavailable, and not call me back).
i sway between being angry at him and being simply lonely for him.

and that's my miserable life.